You’re probably wondering what the heck did she just say? It sounds like the start of an essay for grade-school such as, “Why I Love My Dog.” Yes, I said I’m grateful for my sinus infection and I’ll explain why.
In general I’m a very healthy and active person. I hardly ever get sick, and when I do, it only lasts a short while… Until THIS time.
It usually starts as a viral bug, and 9/10 times I fight it off within 5-7 days. Occasionally (maybe once every 2-3 years) it will be followed up with a secondary bacterial infection, which would need prescription help.
This time… it was viral for 5 days, I would feel better for a day or two, then viral symptoms again for 5 days. Then I felt better for a day or two. Then it came BACK for a third relapse. It’s actually been going on for the ENTIRE month of August.
I’ve been doing all of the suggested things by my General Practitioner, holistic health professionals, well-meaning friends, family, and body-workers. Nothing has helped.
In the past, when I’ve had physical pain or injuries , I’ve used that as an opportunity to learn how to treat those injuries in other people. It made me a more empathetic and knowledgeable therapist. I teach my students to look at their own pain in that way and use it to their advantage.
So, what do I do when I’ve tried everything that’s supposed to work and nothing does? I look at my life, like I would an injured body, and ask, “What is working?” “What is not working?” “WHAT IS OUT OF BALANCE?”
The awareness that the illness has brought to my consciousness about the imbalances and blessings in my life IS THE reason for my gratitude. Here are the lessons I learned:
I realized that work life and personal life was not in balance. The illness forced me to take time off from work, and allowed me the time to actually look at my calendar and create more time off, make REGULAR appointments for massage, chiropractic, physical therapy.
I became aware of the fact that when life gets too busy, I sacrifice MY exercise, MY self care, MY diet…. Which lead me to the question, “Why am I not valuable to MYSELF?” So then I was reminded that I needed to have as much love for myself as much as I love my family, my massage clients, my friends. I started taking my supplements again, made time to stretch, self-massage, and sleep more.
Another BIG lesson…..I needed to let go of some control and let other people take responsibility for things…THEN, I realized how many AMAZING people are in my life who are more than willing and capable to step in and do JUST that!
I’m INCREDIBLY GRATEFUL for my husband, mother, father, brother and in-laws for taking impeccable care of my children on a regular basis, AND for stepping in extra while I was feeling too fatigued on some days to make sure they had proper exercise, meals, and entertainment.
I never have to worry about their safety or well-being because I KNOW they are loved and cared for by all of my extended family.
Another biggie… I think work-balance has been the most profound lesson in all of this. I realized that I had my nose to the grindstone for over three years now pouring intense energy into mastery of my craft, and growing the massage school. I had my hands in every aspect of the business, and this time away has taught me that my staff, students, and peers are capable of handling anything and everything I need them to do, and they do it with a SMILE on their face! I now know beyond a shadow of a doubt that they are all angels walking on this earth.
I learned it IS OK to give up some control. I realized I did a really good job surrounding myself with excellent staff members! They TRULY CAN do anything and everything with supreme professionalism
My students…WOW. When I had to cancel my treatments of regular clients who are in constant pain, instead of them not getting any help, my AMAZING apprentices gladly stepped in to help. My clients got to receive top notch treatments, and I got to rest. That is a sign of TRUE professionalism, and I couldn’t be more proud of them.
Would I have learned these lessons without getting sick? Perhaps, over a longer period of time… But this is where the miracle happens… I got to learn all of this in ONE month’s time!
Thank you for the lessons, Universe, I am forever grateful! Now… let the healing begin!